MAY GOALS

-new month,new goal,new destiny-

There is about two months left of school. TWO. Honestly, I'm excited to be able to train without worrying about school and just let go, relax, and spend time with family and friends. I really do need to relax...this kind of stress is not healthy for a 15 year old :P

Grades: My grades are all pretty high right now and I have made it a goal to finish this trimester with all above A-. Typically, that would be an "asian F" but at BCA, I'm lucky to even get that beautiful A. I have always underestimated my grades and schoolwork ethic but now, I appreciate my semi-procrastinating yet consistent work ethic. 

Training: Because of my injuries, I am constantly having to hold myself back. I have decided to restrain from pushing it. I have been pushing on for too long and I'm like a rubber band, being stretched for a long time only wears it out. I hate sitting out, complaining of my injuries but I just can't keep it to myself. I try but my teachers don't want me to suffer without telling them. Also, fighting at NAGA completely put me down. I promised myself that that fight would prove to everyone that I'm still the same fighter, even with all these obstacles in the way. I am still the same gold medalist I was last year. Losing was not an option. And so when I lost, I couldn't take it and just felt like breaking down. I was okay with the idea of fighting a teammate, especially one who I used to be real close with. The idea of not taking that championship belt home is what killed me inside... I will relax, heal, and try to put myself back on an anabolic state.

Stress: My family, boyfriend, best friends, and teachers all try to help me relieve my stress. But, there is simply too much on my plate. I have to juggle school, training, relationships, friendships... The idea of taking training out of the equation comes up often but to think, I couldn't even last a week away from training how can a last anymore than that?? I do it because I love it. I have been getting better sleep lately and that relieves it a bit. I have also been doing yoga once a week at school for clubs and it is quite relaxing, something I am thinking of taking up. 

Health: My diet is slowly improving, returning back to my strong willpower and resistance to junk foods, including my favorite Sour Gummy Worms (they don't call me Sugar High for nothing).. Since my hyperacidity is also acting up, I am banning myself from soda and also watching my food intake (carbs, fats, proteins), as well as my micronutrients: vitamins, minerals, and water. I hope to return to my strict diet and get myself as healthy as possible to help myself heal and become a better fighter and overall, a better person.